John Viktor

You,
you are my most wonderful surprise,
my greatest demise.

I knew you well--
all the wonder in your eyes,
each finger, each limb,
and all that I could embrace,
touch, kiss.

And yet,
you are my favorite stranger.
Just a moment in time--
but a memory to last forever.

If you ever loved me,
never stop.
If you never loved me,
never start.

Don't ever leave.
Don't ever stay.

I don't want to ever see your face again,
yet your face is never to be forgotten.

I am yours forever and never.

Trance

Entangled
in a never-ending web
of truths and lies,
of reality and make-believe,
where nothing makes sense.

Is this not a dream?
A moment of fantasy, perhaps?
'Tis when eyes wide open
but the senses deceive --
the skin welcoming an unknown touch,
the ears hear whispers, songs,
where there is nothing but silence.

Ay! Why you embrace me
in my fondest dreams,
as if you have been there
always,
as if desire embraced us
with so much longing?

And, whispered
how you have singled me out --
a lone lily in a vast lake.
How I was for you,
you alone.

Desire's madness engulfing --
I, no longer mine.
You are all my thoughts,
my being,
in truths and lies,
in reality and make-believe.

If tomorrow death shall befall
My soul shall take pleasure in death
And open arms into the heavens

If tomorrow I shall live
My heart shall take joy in beating
Filled with the passion for living

If tomorrow I find myself alone
I shall take silence and make it gold
And let perfection bloom from soltitude

If tomorrow I find my one true love
I shall burn like fire
Flowing with love and life for the one

Thus I shall live for today
Dream of the future
And live in passion all my days

An ode to the one I love

My Angel,
stay right here
in my heart
forever.
Don't wander
too far
much too long.
My soul thirsts,
calls to you --
it cannot wait
one minute.
My tired heart
awaits you
forever
and a day,
a day more.
You,
my all,
my ev'rything --
I am
nothing more
And
one day,
a promise --
you and I
together.
Nothing else
in the world
to keep us
far apart.
One true love,
magical,
unending,
eternal.

The shrieking sounds of laughter, the crickets
pain and soothe my loneliness altogether.
The dim incandescent lights,
yellowing, hiding my sorrow in the night.
The warm, breath-like humid air
Encapsulating me,
my only friend.
All alone.
All hidden.
All drawn away from a bittersweet life,
a world that is my reality.